the truth hurts.

[EDIT: this post may be a result of thee femimine cycle;
sometimes I get cranky & conscious of my insecurities.]
my life right now seems to be going through the motions.
it doesn't seem exciting or thrilling at all, dull is the word.
my life is staying steady, not moving.
it's like I re-live the same day over and over again.
the same is happening between me and God.
Satan is attacking my spirit.
I feel weak and weary, worn down.
I need to find rest in You.
I'm not moving forward, nor backwards.
just staying at the same boring speed.
it's kind of like a 'stand-still' or a game of freeze tag.
and here I am waiting to be tagged.

God let me come alive in You. Allow me to find fullness of life in You again. I thought after last weekend things would be different, as they stay the same. Free me of worry and fear. Breathe Your living breath of life back into me. You never leave me or forsake me, even when I feel this way, let me see Your face. Give me a lively, vibrant, exciting walk with You again. If You are for me, who can be against me? Do a good work in me. I'm coming back to You, You loved me first, now let my soul long for You!

Find rest my soul
Confess your grieving
Surrender all
Embrace your healing
I will cast my cares
For You have always cared
You are greater, greater than the fight
That rages for my life
I have found my hope is in,
You are brighter, breaking thru the night
Lighting up my sightI have seen my rest is in You

We're going to Miami ...

It's official. Lindsay and I are going to Miami, FL at the end of August. For Hillsong United's Encoutrer Conference! ... amazing worship, amazing time.

slacking a bit.

Back in the day, I used to be really good about updating ... now with the new semester and work I feel like I never have time for this or anything important to say. School is busy as usual, more work actually this semester I feel. Oh well, so this summer I may be able to part-time nanny and still be able to work at the library..which would be sweet. My twin and me FINALLY got a new car ... with our own money and everything :) we are so stoked about it, it has been two months almost since we've been without a car of our own .. which is hard to working out schedules and getting around. So we feel really blessed to finally have one, making life a little easier. This past week I spent a lot of time with girlfriends, which is so refreshing and delightful.. or just another reminder that I don't need a guy in my life right now anyway. I love sharing what's on my heart, then in turn really do love listening to what is on their hearts. I just love talking till you can no longer say anything or are asked to leave because it's to late, thankfully that only happened three times this week...once at Applebee’s, Panera, and then Barnes & Nobles. That's when you have to resort to the car. Truthfully, not as comfortable and sometimes wastes gas just so you can stay warm, but I have to say it was totally worth it in the end. What can I say; I love 'heart to hearts'. Well anyway, I so wish I had something deep and profound to say but I don't. I will say this though, God is so good - which we so easily forget and I feel we easily underestimate His excellence. He moves within us and around daily we just have to seek Him and He offers us new mercies everyday, even when we so don't deserve it!
- God You are so good to me.

I forgot how much I love this

passage, so I thought I would share...

"... I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Be strong and courageous, because you will lead these people to inherit the land I swore to their forefathers to give them. Be strong and very courageous. Be careful to obey all the law my servant Moses gave you; do not turn from it to the right or to the left, that you may be successful wherever you go. Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."

Joshua 1:5-9